Since I’m a planner, by nature, I have a tendency to live in the future just a bit. ?For instance, right now, I am waiting for these things to come to pass:
— our 24th wedding anniversary celebration (in 6 days)
— my cat’s ear infection to heal
— our younger daughter to come home from Shakespeare Camp
— our older daughter to finish summer term and take a much-deserved vacation
— both daughters to go away to separate colleges
— a publishing house (Zondervans) to respond to a novel ms. submission they’ve had for 3 months
— two publishing houses (Upper Room & Eerdmanns) to respond to a non-fiction ms. submission they’ve had for 2+ months
As a minister, I’m waiting for these things to come to pass:
— the completed demolition of one of our church buildings
— our budget to “normalize” after it’s summer crazies
— a bequest check to refill the capital fund coffers
— leadership for our “Transformation” efforts to rise up and become obvious to me, by the power of the Holy Spirit
— the predictable fall transitions — Sunday School staffing, elder nominating
Nothing unusual. You could probably create a similar list. But it’s the “shadow list” items that are the real killers. ?Perhaps — without realizing it –I’m waiting for:
— my daughters to be “all grown up”
— the world to appreciate the fact that I’m a wonderful writer
— my marriage to show the “inevitable” signs of age
— my church to be “successful”
A week ago a good friend died unexpectedly, so this has come to pass: a moment to reflect on the fact that we don’t know how many moments we have.
Living in the future is unwise. Living in the future because it appears to be a bit more perfect than the present is perhaps unwisest of all.
Now I’m off to my cardio kickboxing class. ?At least there I can punch each moment as it passes.